But as long as your solution is to kill yourself , you wont see them even if theyre right in front of you. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. In Toronto, the barrier at the Bloor Viaduct did not reduce the number of people who died of suicide by jumping in the city; it just moved them to other locations. I said, Well, the night we met I got so drunk I passed out on the living room floor. First published on January 25, 2021 / 11:03 AM. But 10 years later, Im there again. There are so many types of antidepressants these days (around 40), plus mood stabilizers, plus antipsychotic medications that can also be used to treat depression. SAN FRANCISCO (CBS SF) The family of a UC Berkeley freshman who disappeared last September has offered a $10,000 reward for information in connection with the case. Search within r/redsox. At this point I feel like Ill just maim myself or end up locked up for a minimum of six months( yes thats happened to me). Woke up yesterday and realized I needed to make another pilgrimage before the series begins. There is not much known about the day Sydney disappeared. Now I wonder whether I also pressed reset on my brain. Lorraine Rhodes was destitute, and asked Show Folks of America to help pay for the funeral, which they did. Here Are My Reasons. Look at life this way Instead of allowing a human being to be a target almost like a bomb dropping on ringed target Simply flip the idea of all the violence and fear over..Draw a Large Heart then several hearts within Make a plan for dreams and plans Stick to it .. January 25, 2021 / 11:03 AM I used to believe my problems are so intractable that the only way out of my pain was suicide. I hope he is seeing a psychiatrist for his medications, not a PCP, because psychiatrists are much more well versed in the benefits, risks, side effects, etc. : The Fate of Suicide Attempt Survivors, A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters from. I know someone who hanged themself 18 months ago after a buildup of personal problems and much alcohol that night, but rescue services were called and saved him. I wonder what psychotherapy he has tried. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). If I make it, Ill have publicity and be on my way, Rhodes told a friend who later testified at the coroners inquest. Shortly after 1 p.m. on March 8, San Francisco officials pulled the fully clothed body of a 56-year-old white man from the waves off secluded Marshall's Beach, just south of the Golden Gate Bridge. Wests parents led a socially-distanced vigil in Pleasanton last Thursday. It is wonderful that having children seems to have inoculated you against suicidal thoughts. 10 Reasons Teens Avoid Telling Parents about Suicidal Thoughts. In February 2009, following the murder of a four-year-old girl who was thrown off the bridge by her father, the first stage of a temporary suicide barrier was erected on Westgate Bridge, constructed of concrete crash barriers topped with a welded mesh fence. Throughout the years, Ive engaged in self-injurious behaviors. The Suicide Deterrent System, also known as the Safety Net, is being constructed to keep people from jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. Have had lots of therapy after that. While in Australia she started blogging about beginning to experience bouts of depression on top of her anxiety. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mphbefore smashing into the water's surface like concrete. Everything says Get help. Overall, a meta-analysis of numerous studies that looked at bridges suicide barriers found them to be effective. And half of people who die by suicide had attempted suicide at least once previously. Taking into account suicides that might have been missed by researchers, Dr. Seiden stated that 90% of people who tried to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge did not go on to die by suicide. Thats simply not true, but it took stepping outside my beliefs, becoming teachable and following the leads of others to find a life worth living. 2023 Audacy, Inc. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. 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Theres another post that might be helpful to you, too: You Cant Do Everything: Limitations in Helping a Suicidal Person. I once attributed that simply to having realized I wanted to live and (narrowly) surving my attempt. Also Live Through This website has beautiful portraits (photographic but also in prose) of people who survived a suicide attempt. I also knew that there was no hope whatsoever for what was wrong with me. Same with divorce. A. r/redsox. He traveled from L.A. to San Francisco days before the jump to prepare, and holed up in the Grand Southern Hotel on Mission Street with his cameraman to wait for a clear day so the footage would look beautiful when it was watched on news channels from coast to coast. Anyone who has seen her since is also asked to contact San Francisco police at 415-575-4444 or the family's private investigator at 925-705-8328. He completed the challenge and won himself a taxi ride to New York. "We know that there was a lot of pedestrian, car and bicycle traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge the morning Sydney disappeared. I just read your post. On average, 30 people or more die from suicide here each year. She had moved in with friends in San Francisco, where she was living when she disappeared. She is 5 10 tall and weighs 130 pounds. The story of Kevin Hines demonstrates the clarity that can finally appear when someones life is on the line. Note: I wanted to make this post to hopefully create some sort of discussion around the case since it was almost a year and a half ago. They have a good, nonjudgmental, and supportive discussions at ChronicSuicideSupport.com/forum/. But the other day I told him that and now hes moving in with me again so my life is going good again! Required fields are marked *. When I will be talking to him, also sure helps me to see I am suicide attempt survivor. I just hope that one day her family will get answers. So, I have two choices: Miraculously stop all self harm and suicide attempts, or have to make sure they are 100% successful, because I cant stand the thought of long term in patient. I died that day too. Rhodes also made the news in 1946 on a radio program called Truth or Consequences in which he was bizarrely tasked with living on a traffic island on the corner of Hollywood Boulevard and La Brea for three weeks. He published the results in an article titled Where Are They Now? Anyone interested in following the investigation may do so on Facebook or Instagram, and tag posts with #FindSydneyWest. She grew up in Pleasanton, CA and then moved to Chapel Hill, NC with her family during high school. It was in 1984. Email: Andrew.Chamings@sfgate.com | Twitter: @AndrewChamings. "There were many people in that vicinity during that time," said Mr. West. She was last seen wearing a light teal hoodie, dark leggings, and slip-on vans sneakers with dark green and black print. Its not always a change of mind when deciding not to jump its fear of failure, Hi Londa, This case has always stuck with me because I am in my 20s and suffer from anxiety and depression. I feel fortunate and very grateful that so many individuals take their time and devote energy to sharing what they have experienced in their lives-it is so difficult for most people to understand in its wholeness-the value of life ..the science of every day living and the extreme depth and mystery and solstice to human beings, but one way to start understanding why people: innocents commit suicide is to acknowlege the exact factors of why a healthy person would just turn off the switch to existence. similar to cancer ads, etc. She was last seen around 6:45 am when she was dropped off by a rideshare driver. Thank you. She was at Crissy Field, near the bridge. and our None of us can. I think it could be helpful to you. Im sorry to hear of your loss West returned to the Bay Area as a University of California, Berkeley student, where she studied until recently, San Francisco police said when she was first reported missing. The family of Sydney West is offering a $25,000 reward for her return. When I woke up a day later, my depression had greatly improved. The longitude and latitude for the Bridge location is approximately: N 37 Degrees, 49 Minutes, 8.0 Seconds --- W 122 Degrees, 28 Minutes, 40.6 Seconds. Missing person: The San Francisco Police Department is asking the public to report any information regarding 19-year-old Sydney West who was last seen on Sept. 30, 2020, at SF's Crissy Field. Sydney Kaitlyn West, 19, was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge around 6:45 a.m. on September 30, 2020. Lately, the suicidal thoughts have permeated my brain. Anyone with information about Sydneys whereabouts is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek by texting or calling 925-705-8328. Background: Sydney West was born on July 11, 2001. "Jump." That's the word Kevin Hines heard in his head on September 25, 2000, as he stood on the Golden Gate Bridge. The Pittsburg Sun-Telegraph on May 2, 1948. Im afraid to try again and it just adds for anger, desperation, loss of control over my own life and guilt for those in my life who have to worry. An estimated 1,600 people have committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, which has warnings but no barrier. West's family urges anyone with information about the case is asked to contact Scott Dudek, their investigator, who can be reached at 925-705-8328. Press J to jump to the feed. I lost my boyfriend to suicide two years ago and I have not been able to forgive myself. Although severe depression led him to jump off the bridge, Kevin Hines has stated: "The very second I let go, I knew I had made a big mistake." For suicidal individuals and their loved ones, survivors, mental health professionals, & others who care, Although severe depression led him to jump off the bridge, Kevin Hines, Yet it gives me great hope that the vast majority of suicide attempt survivors remain just that survivors. Footage in the area, according to a website the family recently set up in light of her disappearance, was blocked by fog and morning haze. And its been a long term plan, for 35 years, but become refined in that time. I address the myth of inevitable suicide in this post. You note that installation of a suicide barrier at the Bloor Viaduct in Toronto merely caused people to go to other locations in Toronto to die by suicide. Dear Anthony, [feb.6.2019 @9.26am]. Her family relocated to North Carolina in July 2017. You can find a life worth living, too, if you set your mind to finding solutions. Or, at least, balanced! The sad thing is that, as I say in my letter, some of what your friend thinks and believes may actually be true, but his mind is probably also shutting him out of other truths that could balance out his pain. Thank you for sharing, Stacy. The night before she disappeared (Sept. 29) she and her father Jay West had a lengthy phone conversation according to her family. God will come through for you but you have to make an attempt. Horrified spectators screamed and mothers covered their childrens eyes as Chief Sundowns lifeless body bobbed under the bridge and out to sea. After all, they were intent on dying. I am hopeful that similar results will be found after the suicide barrier at the Golden Gate bridge is in place. In 2000, he actually did jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. So when crazy people did crazy things in public places, excited crowds would gather. BERKELEY, CA The parents of Sydney "Syd" West, a missing person who was previously a University of California, Berkeley student, have divulged new details in her case and are asking anyone with information to come forward. At the age of 19, Kevin Hines attempted to commit suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, an all-too-common act that nearly always results in death. God Bless You. Case Contact Information: SFPD at 415-575-444 or text TIP411 (Start your message with SFPD) Or contact: private investigator Scott Dudek at 925-705-8328 or dudek.associates@gmail.com, *there is a reward for information that leads to her location and return, For more info: https://findsydneywest.com/ Facebook: Find Sydney West Instagram @find_sydney_west Polly Klaas Foundation: https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, Sources: https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/. 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I am very sorry for your loss. I agree with you completely, Anonymous. Sydney West was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge in the early morning hours of Sept. 30, walking near Crissy Field. Any suggestions? The persons reasons for dying may begin to fade. I interviewed her parents.https://t.co/tiBGM53NZz pic.twitter.com/lvHh2cCrZg. According to her family, a private investigator has followed up on dozens of tips, but none have led to West's whereabouts. 2021 CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved. I mean how long can I go ahead. I guess I have started to realize its not my faultits no ones fault when a loved one commits suicide. Challenges, extreme challenges. I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. At least twelve hundred people have been seen jumping or have been found in the water since the bridge opened, in 1937, including Roy Raymond, the founder of Victoria's Secret, in 1993, and. Afterward, I was disgusted and angry. Its great to hear that things are going well for you now. It is believed that she had moved out of the dorms into an apartment with some friends near campus. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). As his wife described, without the weighted boots to keep him upright, Rhodes' body arched forward, eventually meeting the water face-first. Reports said West would often visit the bridge for runs, walks, and to take pictures. "Syd," as she liked to be called, was initially thought to have last been seen or heard from early the morning of September 30 in the Crissy Field area. Once her gap year was over, she moved back to California decided to attend U.C. Hundreds more are stopped from harming themselves through the efforts of the Golden Gate Bridge District . Public File for KBCW-TV / KBCW 44 Cable 12. Her parents thanked others for the love and support, and asked people to continue spreading the word by sharing photos and memories of their daughter on social media. I was so worried about him, but he refused to get help and he kept drinking. Camera footage has been reviewed and interviews have been conducted among West's friends and acquaintances, but there are no leads. The footage taken by Guzman didn't make the news, but was watched by a small, select group: the San Francisco coroners jury, which quickly ruled a case of accidental death from drowning a week later. Has left me pretty much bankrupt and not willing to live. I saw him hit the water like a bullet, said his wife. 2023 Audacy, Inc. All rights reserved. Its death toll has since been surpassed only by the Nanjing Yangtze River Bridge in China.. Its unfair. Privacy Policy. The Golden Gate Bridge came to be recognized as a symbol of the power and progress of the United States, and it set a precedent for suspension-bridge design around the world. For me, the will to live kicked in. Police do not necessarily believe there was foul play involved, according to an interview Rueca had with KRON4. Try convincing someone like me that life is worth it. Copyright 2013-2023 Stacey Freedenthal. The Golden Gate net project is like putting a bandaid on an ulcer. In 2013, Briggs retired from the California Highway . I did find this website and it has so much information that I needed to read. The 265-foot plunge off the most famous bridge in the world was right in his wheelhouse, until it wasnt. How Parents Can Support a Child With Suicidal Thoughts, Suicide Survivor Stories Empowered Me to Live, How Ive Survived and Thrived with Suicidal Thoughts, A Personal Note to Readers of Speaking of Suicide, Helping the Suicidal Person: Tips and Techniques for Professionals, psychotherapist and consultant in private practice. Peace be with you Steven. Come home.. Your pain matters. My reason to live is so I dont hurt people who care but what if you have no one who cares there was a time I had no one it was only my stupidity that got the hospital aware of my attempt. Aside from seeing a therapist, I didnt find anything out there to help. A missing person case has also been launched in Orange County, North Carolina, where West's family lives. What do you tell the ones who still perceive they have no one how do I get through to him? Sergeant Kevin Briggs (also known as the Guardian of the Golden Gate Bridge [1] [2]) is a California Highway Patrol officer noted for his work in suicide intervention, having dissuaded more than two hundred people from jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge into San Francisco Bay. You can learn more about me here. I live with a higher purpose now, but prior to my children I went through hell and constantly entertained the thought of killing myself. The decision collapsed Rhodes sister's claim that her brother was murdered as cameraman Guzman should have been in a boat to pull her brother out of the water. . I love the analogy with weight loss. The Golden Gate Bridge crosses the Golden Gate Strait and connects the City of San Francisco and the County of Marin to the north. T he Golden Gate Bridge is one of the top suicide sites in the world, surpassed only by the Yangtze River Bridge in Nanjing, China.People have jumped off of the bridge for nearly as long as it's been accessible to the public; the first recorded suicide a World War I veteran suspected to have suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder took place less than three months after the . The attempt was no cry for help. I wish you all the very best and I pray you each find a way to manage and control the thoughts of suicide. I use to hate her for wanting to leave me, got diagnosed w depression at 15 have done so many therapy sessions. She was a student at Donlon Elementary and Hart Middle schools and attended Foothill High School for her freshman and sophomore years. Additionally, Hines takes medication and . And there ended Rhodes four-years-in-the-making attempt to wow crowds and find fame by jumping from the bridge into the bay. Obviously, I failed. Sydney West never returned home, and has not been heard from since. Andrew has written for The Atlantic, Vice, SF Weekly, the San Francisco Chronicle, McSweeney's, The Bold Italic, Drowned in Sound and many other places. Simply put, means restriction saves lives. Found it was in part due to hormone imbalance along with sugar imbalances, throw in that its winter along with little sleep, emotional bombs going off and I had the perfect storm. Have you read Whats In the Way Is the Way by Mary OMalley? West vanished Sept. 30 in San Francisco. The articles abstract states: Following the interventions, there was an 86% reduction in jumping suicides per year at the sites in question (95% CI 79% to 91%). After he was rescued, he continued to live, and lives still, serving as a suicide prevention advocate at the national level. 2023 CBS Broadcasting Inc. All Rights Reserved. I wanted to distance myself from it as much as I could so that people would leave me alone. His father had died by suicide and even though I knew all of this, I couldnt see the forest through the trees. Yes I know this fear of failure as well. It certainly sounds like your friends antidepressants are not working. The main principle to this is very simple Taking energy and harnessing it for the good and nothing can go wrong.. Notify me of follow-up comments by email. In the midst of a struggle with mental illness, Hines got a running start . I would bet that most, if not all, had narcissistic mothers. I know how hard it is. The night before she disappeared (Sept. 29) she and her father Jay West had a lengthy phone conversation according to her family. He might also have refused to remove the gun from the home, too. Good luck to your friend, Julie, and thanks for commenting. While at Berkeley she joined the rowing team and showed a strong interest in medicine, business, and biological science. This Walking Pad treadmill made getting 10,000 steps a How to get tickets for Depeche Mode's new tour dates. But the cameras lost sight of her because of heavy fog, making it impossible to know what happened toher. I was able to make it out of the hopelessness and despair that led to my attempt. Such an assumption would be wrong. "Together we will find Sydney and bring her home," her mother said. My family lied to me about basically everything relevant and valuable in life. Kevin Briggs. And now I have the means to do it. Berkeley when she went missing on September 30, 2020. Rhodes had been seeking fame all his life, and successfully became one of Hollywoods first stuntmen, appearing in movies such as "Under Arizona Skies" and "Duel in the Sun," in which he performed a cliff jump. Sydney West is from Chapel Hill, North Carolina, but also grew up in the Pleasanton area. After graduating high school in 2019, she decided to take a gap year in Australia. Dayna. 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